some thoughts

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With girls, they're terrible. They can be terrible. I was in the school library, one time, now was a few years ago, I was in the libary, and there were these girls they were revising for their GCSEs, and this girl she was a stroppy kind of a girl, she said it's hot in here, and she took her shirt off - - yes she had something underneath, that - - so the librarian had to come, she had to come and she - - yes, cause I was there, and -

I went for this job, I just had this tryout, like I went along, but it was this bunch of 4 year olds, like 15 of them. and you have to do everything with them. you have to ask them if they need the toilet before you start the class, and you have to take them to the toilet, and at the end you get all their coats, and make sure they put their coats on, the arms, I mean, I've never even had a kid brother or a cousin or anything, I have no idea, like, everything. and you're just in this classroom, the middle of nowhere, eight at night,

and I came back, and I'd been away, and they didn't know where I'd gone, and they came up and hugged me! they came up and hugged me, and they said, Miss Helen Miss Helen, at some schools you know, sometimes they're funny with that, but they're ok, they with the principle too, but you notice, if they come and hug her that's ok, but she would never initiate it. never initiate it. but she comes up and she hugs me and she says, Miss Helen! I've moved up TWO reading levels! Some teachers, they don't even like kids. Some teachers, before they go in the classrom they -

I'm not even sure I like people

...you know, you can't let them get to you. they can just tear you apart -


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